New year, first post for 2013.

7:59 PM @ Saturday, January 5, 2013

Hi. Hello. 😁
Well, this is my first post for 2013. I almost forgot my blogger. I am so sorry for ignoring you. 😄✌
This year, I promise that I'll be happy and more positive. My 2012 is not really good. Well, it goes well at first but yeah, I ended up crying and stuff.

January - I was still a senior back then on High School. how time flies, I remember this month is our school's month. All we gotta do is have fun. Intramurals is in this month. There are so many rides, booths, and shops at our school that time. I promised myself I will cherish my last few months in my alma matter. Good or bad, i'll treasure it.

February - I was happy to see the results of my entrance exams on some universities. My target is really Renmin University, which is in China.. where my hometown is.. I took up an entrance examination there last November 2011 when I was there at China with my first choice History and second as Music. I'm not alone, My boyfriend Ren also took up the entrance examination test. Gladly, we both passed and decided there to study. I also passed the entrance examinations on De La Salle University, and University of Santo Tomas (but it's waiting list) and also Centro Escolar University. There's a reason why I chose that universities. Dad studied at La Salle and UST, while Mom studied at Centro Escolar.

March - We practiced for 2 weeks.. our Graduation Day is getting nearer, Before, I have feelings that.. I want to leave now, I want to finish this, I want to study college now! But sudden regret hit me, there's an urge feeling saying, No.. I still want to stay here, I'll miss this school. I have so many memories on this school. And my friends, I treasure them the most - I believe that high school friends are the best!

April - I'm so happy, vacation feels! Welcome summer - my month. Aside from sleeping, eating, surfing the net, going everywhere.. What did I do? none. 😒 well, I celebrated my 16th birthday.. yay! i'm getting old, will I be mature now? - some of my thoughts that time.

May - My parents disagreed on me studying at Renmin University, aside from I studied here in the Philippines, it has only 10year basic program, which is very different on China's basic program. At that time, Ren had already enrolled on the university - that makes me feel sorry. I can't be with him. So I decided to enroll at Centro Escolar - why? when I went to DLSU, I saw the other "frosh" students and I think.....I don't want them to be my friend  😁😁 same goes to UST... while when I went to Centro Escolar, the staffs are really good and caring, other freshman students were nice and friendly, but so sad, I didn't meet anyone who's on the same college(school) as me.

June - Here it goes, my first day at University. I was a bit nervous that time, I have to say I like college life compared to high school life. Every break time, All I do is waste money, which I feel sorry..

July - October 😋😆 first semester. It was awesome! I'm so happy and blessed that I passed first semester, without getting any 3.0 down on my grades. But well, you can't blame me, the only subject that i'm not good at is Mathematics-College Algebra.. that's why my grades there is so low. Yeah, I can get the total of 1.75 but.. my Mathematics is really a big loss.

November - well, semester break is about to finish and Second Semester starts! I'm so happy that this time, we'll be having a major subject - POL110 Introduction to Political Science, our professor there is our professor last time at History. She was good and her discussions are really interesting, I love this subject so much, add the fact that it's my major so I have to do well on this.

December - worst month for me so far. I cried a lot of times. You can't make me forget what had happen that's why.. I'm getting bullied (lol not really) on sns. Mainly twitter, At first, I already felt that was me, that's why I keep asking the person if it's me and what did I do to them. He kept on replying "it's not you" but still, I can't help but to get sad or to feel stressed. It keeps on going until it reached on week. This time, another person tweeted hate posts against me - which is i'm very very sure that it was me. Why? - all stuff written on my bio was being targeted by that person. I asked him, "Why? what is your problem against me?" and he replied "No, it wasn't you" and that's it. I cried which resulted to my puffy swollen eyes. I can't stop crying, Thinking why are they doing this to me. We're not even close, I haven't talk to him, and yet they're doing this. I called one of their friends, saying he didn't know what's that about even though he's "tagged" on the so called game. Well, if that's a game - I don't find it funny at all. I didn't know what happened until I lost conscious, Ren who was at vacation that time in this country happened to visit me and saw me lying at the ground. All I know is i'm at the hospital and I kept on calling my classmate, but he won't answer until my auntie called him. Seriously, the reason was really unacceptable for me. I'm being judged, and yet they don't know me, we haven't talk even once. They said I was so sarcastic or has an inclement attitude, ungrateful. Yeah, one of them even joked about my disease. I'm the kind of person who really says thank you or sorry. Yeah, Even to my parents. I'm so shy, can't you believe i'm like that? but that's the truth. But the other reasons? - let me repeat it again, we haven't even talk, so how will that happen? I'm not really close to them. Never. and I'll still do that. If that will make them stop. I remember my thoughts "they shouldn't help me then" I know they really don't like to help me. I can feel it, then don't. I'm not forcing them. Me and some of my college friends thought about the difference of our "boy highschool classmates" and our guy classmates today. Really different. My perspective has changed, I want my high school days compared to college days.

My second semester has just started and there I am, really a bit unhappy. I have a flight tomorrow to Philippines. Yes, I am in China for Christmas and New Year vacation. On Monday, I'm back to classes. I hope 2013 will be good to my school issues.

Rat - This is my year water Snake, please be good to me. Please. 😊
- fadedwish