Unlucky.
11:20 PM @ Tuesday, October 22, 2013
I never get the chance to win on some giveaways or contests on twitter. I don't know why. I guess I'm just that unlucky.
So I've been trying to do my best so I'd win on this one "SS5Manila" tickets but still no luck. Maybe because they said it's too much for me. The last super show i've attended was way back 2010 and it was SS2Manila. That was my first and memorable! The previous one or the second is SS5Shanghai. Yeah, just months ago, I saw them. But I feel like it's different cause in Manila, There'd be Heechul and it's like something has been prepared for the fans. :(
Meanwhile, it's D-12 to One Great Step! Finally, I will see Infinite again. o/
Mixed emotions.
11:37 AM @ Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Hi. Here I am again.
I am kinda depressed or -- I don't know how to explain it or maybe it's because of the weather? Well, there's a typhoon over here and it won't stop raining.
Back to my point, mixed emotions.
I don't know what I should feel or something. This October, Super Junior is coming to Manila. I am already planning to save some money so I could go to their concert. Actually I can just not attend here cause my cousin bought me tickets at SS5 Shanghai and that'd happen this 24th. Depressing isn't it? Cause it's four days and yet i'm still here in the Philippines - trapped. I'm trapped ((plugging Henry's Trap)) cause there's a Typhoon. Ugh.
and it's not just that. I heard that Infinite is coming to Manila this November. Why. I really wished and hoped that they will come back after Dream Kpop Fantasy Concert but I didn't expect it to be that soon and I mean why does it have to be so close with Super Junior. ; n ;
I don't know. I don't know anymore. Super Junior is the reason why I am in kpop world. They introduced me to kpop. They're my very first favorite group and I still love them, as being ELF remains forever. I remember doing a lot of foolish things with this fandom. ;; and there's this Infinite - that I've been addicted to these 7 gorgeous boys ever since they debuted. Let's just say i'm not that 100% loyal to SJ that's why being Inspirit become my very first fandom. (But Hey! I was also a hardcore Sone. Well, I'm a SonElf that time. Been gaga over Super Generation) LOL So yeah, I really don't know who to attend. I mean if I have that lot of money I would go on both :c I wish some sponsor will give me. Mehhhhh! o/
Summer!
10:56 PM @ Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Oh! I'm back again.
Seriously, I was being occupied by these paperworks. Add the fact that it's only a major subject huh? Why are they like that. They are also a student before, is this some kind of retaliation? well, it's not funny.
I'm really happy that it's already March. It means summer vacation is getting nearer! yeah, like that! cause our finals will be next week. (why is our university so late) That's why I need to focus on this so I can relax or just review next week, but how can I? effing professors keep on giving us homeworks, projects, and even long quizzes! That's too unfair. (they deserve those low scores of mine on teacher-evaluation)
But I need to do better this Finals! So I might post again next week? This summer? Omg, i'm so excited. I can sleep peacefully. (dayuuum, my schedule is not good)
Let's study okay? Brainy mode. :x
PS: I'm pretty much interested on reviews about stuff... can I do one? but... ugh I'll think about it (:
Valentines Day.
7:34 PM @ Thursday, February 14, 2013
No. I don't hate this. But I hate people during this day. All I can see -- couples flirting (which I don't find cute), flowers (is it All Saint's Day?), chocolates (you're just giving them a diabetes), and cute stuff or anything that is red or pink.
Will you call me bitter? If you're going to say I am because I have no one to be with. You're wrong. But at the second thought, it's just like that cause my oppar is not in this country. Stupid long distance.
I just really hate it. You know it's really annoying when you're seeing a couple in a subway kissing in front of you. I mean, duh? it's a public place and it's not cute! Will I be like this forever? (every Valentines)
According to some researchers, Valentines Day is the most hated day. You can tell why.
1 word, 2 syllables, 5 letters.
7:26 PM @ Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Sorry.
This word is now common to people. "Sorry" or Apologies nowadays are really insincere. I can say that based on what I see. Is that really easy to say sorry?
I'm just pissed on how people say sorry easily after they create a ruckus. Fudge, I hate it. Yes, we can say that we should forgive - but that doesn't mean (for me) that it is easy to forget. I'm like holding grudges to someone right now. That person did a horrible thing on me and that person accused a lot of stuff about me before apologizing. What the hell? Should I say thank you? -____-
PS: this is really old but the memories are coming back again. .__.
Happy new year!
9:42 PM @ Sunday, February 10, 2013
新年快乐!!! 恭喜发财! 紅包拿來~
okay, been busy.... midterms has passed and finals is coming, then summer break! <3 span="">
time is so fast and i'm getting old again. I can do this! few more years and i'll finish school~
so, happy new year again! (: give me some nian gao...
at the second thought... don't... I don't like it anymore, I've been eating it since yesterday. XD
Aigoo.
5:47 PM @ Monday, January 28, 2013
I almost forgot posting here. I was so busy last week, so many assignments and paperworks! and midterms is fast approaching. I am hungry, gosh. what is life ):
Anyways, I'm so tired, and I need to read the constitution. Adios! XD
Dreams do come true.
10:11 PM @ Sunday, January 20, 2013
Labels: dkfc, exo, infinite, snsd, Tahiti, tasty, ukiss
Life of a fangirl and part time stalker.
10:25 PM @ Friday, January 18, 2013
yeah yeah yeah, we went to NAIA Terminal 2 this morning to see them, but unluckily, I just saw a glimpse of them. Too bad they went out to the departure area - which is unfair to me! </////3
anyways, I'll see them tomorrow at the concert but they are too far. this is my only luck. Tried to have a passes and such but still, I wanted to get closer on them. Besides, dlsr / professional cameras aren't allowed on the concert and all I have is this stupid pink phone which has low quality camera. -_- I got my note sold cause I want to buy another one but........ until now ;AAAAAA;
so here, some of my pics. might be blurred though XD
FADEDWISH
Labels: dkfc, infinite, Tahiti, ukiss
Woooh so tired ):
8:52 PM @ Wednesday, January 16, 2013
So yeah I just finished the laundry and ate my dinner already. Good thing there's no classes tomorrow. /sigh/ what a poor life of me, so alone. I'll survive this! 3 more years. No 7 more years.
I still need to do something, can't make a long post (:
I'm back again :D
9:43 PM @ Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Hola! Done on my assignment on pol110. It was long. -______- and to think that it's essay. Same goes to eco w/ taxation ): Yeah, I have to do those stuff cause it's a shame if I go on that class and yet I don't have any assignments. Aside from that, I will be absent on the last 3 subjects before the 1 hour break. I'm going somewhere that I can tell as of now. Who knows? maybe someone from my university is reading this =))))))
There's no classes the day after tomorrow, which is on Thursday. and still... I'm going to be absent on Friday cause I'll stalk my oppars and unnis at the press conference. I'm really worried about those three subjects cause i'll miss two meetings. :( hope it's going to be alright. But surely, I won't miss my Saturday schedule cause the concert is at 8pm. *squeals* I don't really look excited huh? :"""")
To be honest, I'm really lazy to type stuff right. That's the same reason why I don't write stories..as of now. XD
Yay!
4:40 PM @ Monday, January 14, 2013
I'm so happy, why? cause I already got my tickets to dkf concert this coming Saturday. Actually.. this is supposed to be posted yesterday, but I was so tired and I almost forgot about it.
I'm really excited to meet Girls' Generation - cause they are my super major fandom ever. And same goes to Infinite. <3 br="">
omg, I will surely spazz about this. you know.. fangirl mode attacks again *o*
and I need to use my ninja/stalker/paparazzi skills for photos! I can do this!
What a day.
10:44 PM @ Friday, January 11, 2013
This morning, we had a symposium with several senators. Obviously, they went to our university and Political Science students organized the event.
Whew. I was lucky to take some pictures, paparazzi or a reporter type pictures XD and even shook(shake) hands with them. It was a pleasure to meet them, it's one of a lifetime moments.
There, I'm so tired and I want to rest so I can't make this any longer.
PS: I edited our "class" lanyard that's why i'm utterly tired. ):
Picture above is Senator Miriam Santiago and Senator Antonio Trillanes IV :)
Homeworks.
10:19 PM @ Thursday, January 10, 2013
It's pissing me off! D:<
I have a lots of homeworks to do and yeah, how brutal they are.
I'm pretty sure our professors were also students before. and why are they passing this to us? :-/
To think that it has to be handwritten. It pisses me off, seriously.
Well, I have no choice or I'll fail those subjects. I can do this. OTL
Yay.. classes is back again
9:09 PM @ Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Okay, there's no classes today cause it's the feast day of Black Nazarene. Although our university is not catholic, they decided to suspend classes cause the roads will be closed today.
It's just a normal day.. I slept half of the day and I spend half of it by surfing the net. Yeah, just a normal day. And the schedule is still TThS. >:)< lol I feel like it's still Tuesday night and skipping Wednesday.
No major class again. Cause it's on every Wednesday/Friday. :( I love that subject, super. Wishing I pass on that subject too.
Lazy to write, so here.. will post again if i'm not lazy (:
My new layout design!
9:14 PM @ Tuesday, January 8, 2013
Isn't it pretty? To be honest, I have almost 8 choices of themes but it's hard to edit it out. There are some codes that got error that's why I can't fix it even if I debug it.
This is some kind of strategy if you notice, I'm posting again so I can have lots of post. >////< why am I even revealing this. Tbh, I'm getting bored on twitter.. I don't know why, I'm getting the same feeling I got on facebook. Maybe because I've been tweeting for four years already?
But you look at it. Twitter is way better than Facebook. Seriously, all I can see on my news feed is all about weird guys or punk girls, or just kids (nowadays, most peeps on facebook are kids.. sigh when I was on their age i'm just playing outside with my childhood friends) and aside from that, my notifications are always full of stupid game requests. So how am I going to give an interest on that sns.
*sigh* I wish the old layouts before. The old old facebook. The old old twitter. The old old tumblr. Well, everything does change, change is the only permanent in this world.
Labels: facebook, layout, old, tumblr, twitter
Lazy, lazy!
7:27 PM @
Omg, I just find it weird.. I feel like i'm going to post lots of entries for this year. I think i'm not lazy.... as of now (:
I don't like making this blog as a diary. Well, who knows? what if the person i'm talking about sees this.. that'd be awkward if ever. So... I guess i'm just going to post weird stuff and my addictions or whatever thoughts I have as of now.
PS: I know I'm weird, no need to remind me. =)))
Labels: diary, lazy, weird, what?
Easy, breezy.
8:47 PM @ Sunday, January 6, 2013
So cold and yeah, I'm doing my assignment. Can you believe it? Well, I was 3 days absent. I need to do this work stuff so I can watch horror movies.
Yeah, I got a weird title.. well, it's so cold in here.. And all I can hear is the subway which is near on our condominium. Classes is back tomorrow, to be honest, i'm still lazy. Still feeling the laziness effect. I can't call it jetlag though.. cause we got the same time zones. I wonder what will happen tomorrow. 😒 please let tomorrow be a good day! :)
New year, first post for 2013.
7:59 PM @ Saturday, January 5, 2013
Hi. Hello. 😁
Well, this is my first post for 2013. I almost forgot my blogger. I am so sorry for ignoring you. 😄✌
This year, I promise that I'll be happy and more positive. My 2012 is not really good. Well, it goes well at first but yeah, I ended up crying and stuff.
January - I was still a senior back then on High School. how time flies, I remember this month is our school's month. All we gotta do is have fun. Intramurals is in this month. There are so many rides, booths, and shops at our school that time. I promised myself I will cherish my last few months in my alma matter. Good or bad, i'll treasure it.
February - I was happy to see the results of my entrance exams on some universities. My target is really Renmin University, which is in China.. where my hometown is.. I took up an entrance examination there last November 2011 when I was there at China with my first choice History and second as Music. I'm not alone, My boyfriend Ren also took up the entrance examination test. Gladly, we both passed and decided there to study. I also passed the entrance examinations on De La Salle University, and University of Santo Tomas (but it's waiting list) and also Centro Escolar University. There's a reason why I chose that universities. Dad studied at La Salle and UST, while Mom studied at Centro Escolar.
March - We practiced for 2 weeks.. our Graduation Day is getting nearer, Before, I have feelings that.. I want to leave now, I want to finish this, I want to study college now! But sudden regret hit me, there's an urge feeling saying, No.. I still want to stay here, I'll miss this school. I have so many memories on this school. And my friends, I treasure them the most - I believe that high school friends are the best!
April - I'm so happy, vacation feels! Welcome summer - my month. Aside from sleeping, eating, surfing the net, going everywhere.. What did I do? none. 😒 well, I celebrated my 16th birthday.. yay! i'm getting old, will I be mature now? - some of my thoughts that time.
May - My parents disagreed on me studying at Renmin University, aside from I studied here in the Philippines, it has only 10year basic program, which is very different on China's basic program. At that time, Ren had already enrolled on the university - that makes me feel sorry. I can't be with him. So I decided to enroll at Centro Escolar - why? when I went to DLSU, I saw the other "frosh" students and I think.....I don't want them to be my friend 😁😁 same goes to UST... while when I went to Centro Escolar, the staffs are really good and caring, other freshman students were nice and friendly, but so sad, I didn't meet anyone who's on the same college(school) as me.
June - Here it goes, my first day at University. I was a bit nervous that time, I have to say I like college life compared to high school life. Every break time, All I do is waste money, which I feel sorry..
July - October 😋😆 first semester. It was awesome! I'm so happy and blessed that I passed first semester, without getting any 3.0 down on my grades. But well, you can't blame me, the only subject that i'm not good at is Mathematics-College Algebra.. that's why my grades there is so low. Yeah, I can get the total of 1.75 but.. my Mathematics is really a big loss.
November - well, semester break is about to finish and Second Semester starts! I'm so happy that this time, we'll be having a major subject - POL110 Introduction to Political Science, our professor there is our professor last time at History. She was good and her discussions are really interesting, I love this subject so much, add the fact that it's my major so I have to do well on this.
December - worst month for me so far. I cried a lot of times. You can't make me forget what had happen that's why.. I'm getting bullied (lol not really) on sns. Mainly twitter, At first, I already felt that was me, that's why I keep asking the person if it's me and what did I do to them. He kept on replying "it's not you" but still, I can't help but to get sad or to feel stressed. It keeps on going until it reached on week. This time, another person tweeted hate posts against me - which is i'm very very sure that it was me. Why? - all stuff written on my bio was being targeted by that person. I asked him, "Why? what is your problem against me?" and he replied "No, it wasn't you" and that's it. I cried which resulted to my puffy swollen eyes. I can't stop crying, Thinking why are they doing this to me. We're not even close, I haven't talk to him, and yet they're doing this. I called one of their friends, saying he didn't know what's that about even though he's "tagged" on the so called game. Well, if that's a game - I don't find it funny at all. I didn't know what happened until I lost conscious, Ren who was at vacation that time in this country happened to visit me and saw me lying at the ground. All I know is i'm at the hospital and I kept on calling my classmate, but he won't answer until my auntie called him. Seriously, the reason was really unacceptable for me. I'm being judged, and yet they don't know me, we haven't talk even once. They said I was so sarcastic or has an inclement attitude, ungrateful. Yeah, one of them even joked about my disease. I'm the kind of person who really says thank you or sorry. Yeah, Even to my parents. I'm so shy, can't you believe i'm like that? but that's the truth. But the other reasons? - let me repeat it again, we haven't even talk, so how will that happen? I'm not really close to them. Never. and I'll still do that. If that will make them stop. I remember my thoughts "they shouldn't help me then" I know they really don't like to help me. I can feel it, then don't. I'm not forcing them. Me and some of my college friends thought about the difference of our "boy highschool classmates" and our guy classmates today. Really different. My perspective has changed, I want my high school days compared to college days.
My second semester has just started and there I am, really a bit unhappy. I have a flight tomorrow to Philippines. Yes, I am in China for Christmas and New Year vacation. On Monday, I'm back to classes. I hope 2013 will be good to my school issues.
Rat - This is my year water Snake, please be good to me. Please. 😊
- fadedwish
bipolar~
2:47 AM @ Friday, March 23, 2012
"I don’t even know why, but I think i’m being bipolar. Sometimes I hate “this” person. well, she is really irritating. although she is my friend, well she is really annoying. I’ve noticed that sometimes i’m an optimist.. but turns into being an pessimist. There are times that I’m hating people around me with no any reason. oh my god."
photogenic.. is not me! D:
2:37 AM @
so this is being an issue huh? hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
okay. i just realized that i've said that i'm not photogenic on my 2 posts.
well, i really am. i envy those people who are photogenic. because i am not! :(
i look very very ugly on my photos. before, i was really concerned on how i look like, so i took photos of mine. resulting to 40+ photos.. and to my luck, i would only get 2 or 3 as my best photo.. and then i will pick which will be the one. but now, i'm not really concerned about it.. i would take a photo then upload it. -_____-
why is this even an issue to me? hahaha.
graduating..
2:19 AM @
See that title? I'm graduating already! Finally~ on March 29, me, is finally graduating high school! yes but that doesn't mean school is over.. i still have college^^ *sigh* well yeah, my high school life wasn't that fun. in our school, we don't have kingkas or queenkas.. but we do have "popular" schoolmates.
my school is a private school. i have to agree that this school is the best. we have a swimming pool. (i hate swimming lessons) we have air-conditioned rooms. we have beautiful landscape/s. and many more to mention. about classmates/schoolmates? some are really annoying. almost all girls are flirty. i have classmates who is very very annoying. they are the so-called-popular girls in our class. i hate them to death. just because they have the popularity, they can bully someone. bunch of plastic and feelers..
it sucks if you're a loner, you would've been called "chestered"! hell yeah. that word was based on an alumni. idk the history though. of course, i do have friends. but i'm not so close to other year levels. i have to say some are very weird! nerds? i don't think our school has that kind of person. maybe one or two?
but forget all those things. i'm graduating already! i won't be able to see those faces again. to all the people who have pissed/hurt/insulted me, i just want to say fvck you! you know my name, not my story, btch. and to all my friends, thank you for being there.. i hope we see again during our college life. ♥
ps: i'm completely pissed of my graduation picture. my face is just-- ugh. i hate it. poker face. i'm not photogenic. why? it's not a big deal until they said our graduation pictures will be screened while we are getting that damn diploma on stage. -_______-
you know what time is it? it's already 2:18am! wooosh! i need to sleep~ so bye! night. x
Second day of exams.
3:14 PM @ Thursday, December 15, 2011
Yey! Second day of exams were finished already! 1 more to go~~ that Physics test almost killed me. D:
Why is it so hard? Please let me pass that test! Hmmm.. btw, later we're going to the mall to buy some stuff (gifts for my friends) for Friday. Well, we have a Christmas party on Friday w/c means the last school day for 2011. December break is really coming! <3
Back to the topic. I don't really know what to buy. Yes, they are my friends but I don't really know what to give. I just hope they'll like my present. *cross fingers* But does that really matters? For me, the important one is I gave them present which means I didn't forget them.
& I'm hoping for this Christmas party to be memorable. This will be my last time on celebrating it in our school. I'll never forget those moments I've spent on IV - Ignatius of Loyola. They're the best! \m/
3rd year friends.
3:48 PM @ Wednesday, December 14, 2011
III - St. John The Beloved.
I miss my Junior life. This was the best year for me. (: Well, we have a lot of memories in here unlike my Senior year. It's like time goes by and t'was so fast!
One thing I would never forget on my Junior life is when we decided to create a movie. It was a project in English. So when we tried to create some scenes of it, It turned into big mess! Well, the first scenario will be at the Grade School building, but since we're already in the High School building, we decided to do the scenes in our building first.
This was the second day of filming. (we ruined our first day so, this time it was more serious)
Well see that picture? The one who were holding the cam was Janine. God. she's like a camera addict. And the one beside her was Patricia.
Instead of doing the project, they decided to have some fun at the girls' cr. Haha. That boy was our classmate. He was also included in the said group project. There are four more boys, they can't be seen in the picture but they're in the cubicles of the cr, Practicing on how to bang the door. (It was a horror movie)
From Left to right: Ysabella, Erica, Patricia, and Me.
After the cr scene, we decided to go to our classroom, which is located at the second floor. The boys already left us.
We stayed there for a couple of minutes. Well! Our classroom was so dirty! The cleaners escaped again. /sigh
So look what happened? I ended up cleaning it! I hate dirty places. So I decided to clean it.
i don't know but I don't mind on cleaning our room, but when my mom asks me to clean the house, I was like Idgaf. I don't want! haha. :D
That was their dirt anyways! ^^
So after cleaning the whole room, I decided to sit their beside the flatform and started to curl my hair. My hair before was really straight and long, but now It was short (until my shoulders) and it was perm. That girl beside me was Ysabella, I don't remember why she is there. Haha
So escape some scenes. We're sitting at the bench near the grade school building, waiting for someone to pick us up. But it took so long, so here it is again! Picture time. This time, It was Richelle and Patricia. See that hand with a peace sign? That was mine. Hahaha. I was holding the tripod I think?
So this is the end of my post! (: I do really miss them. We often talk, we're not in the same sections. I will never forget these moments! It was really really fun~~ If you notice, my face wasn't shown in the pictures, It was almost full of my hair! You know why? I don't like pictures with me on it. I'm not photogenic so I do really look like a something. -____- So that's the reason why I often took a photo of myself. D:
11PM?
10:58 PM @ Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Here I am again! Way to go on my 2nd post! Yay~~
It's already 11 in the evening and here I am, still blogging. (: I don't really sleep at this time, because everytime I try to sleep, I just really can't. -______- I think I have an insomnia. >< and to think that we have some exams tomorrow. (the truth is, tomorrow is the second day, and here I am still doing what I did yesterday) I'm not yet reviewing. Call me a lazy bum, idc. I'm just excited for our December/Christmas break!
这可能是我今晚的最后发表的文章？所以再见！ (:
这可能是我今晚的最后发表的文章？所以再见！ (:
